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I have been poking away this week on a hockey rpf fic that will probably not see the light of day, not unlike the several hundred other stories I've started and not posted or finished in the last several years.  I have been hesitating over thinking too much about where the hesitation to post is coming from, other than that I disconnected myself a lot from fandom and now am having a hard time even keeping my toes in the water.  Maybe I'm worried about too much of a good thing-- or maybe the opposite.  I actually deleted a fic for the first time after continuing to get wank-filled comments from Steve Rogers stans who were hyperventilating about my refusal to accept Our Lord and Savior, Captain America--  I didn't have the interest in finishing the story after all the hate I was getting on my tumblr for daring to reblog content about Tony Stark.  (Not about Steve Rogers, or anti-anyone.  Just, merely about Tony Stark.)  

I sort of wish that I felt compelled to write Wonder Woman (2017) fic, or something in Mad Max: Fury Road, or even to continue on from the one story I started in The Martian fandom... but I think I'm mostly just content to reblog fanart and picspam and write a bit of meta in Wonder Woman tumblr about what a great story it is.  I have no fic ideas, or no prolonged ones-- I think in large part because I feel like there are no "gaps" in the stories as told on screen.   There are no significant plot holes, underdeveloped characters, or dissatisfying endings that I feel compelled to fix, and it's interesting to decide that that's why I write.  

MMFR generated a lot of wonderful stories, and so did The Martian.  I haven't stepped foot in any of the WW fic tags, and haven't been curious to. I guess I don't want to spoil the enjoyment of the movies qua movies because I was so thrilled walking away from them on first viewing that I don't want to go back and purposefully run a critical eye over things to try to find problems I'd then want to write about to fix.  All three movies have wonderful, wonderful world-building, though, and I am very happy for the people for whom those stories have created a playground to write next chapters or what-ifs.  For my part, though, I don't want to poke at the canon too hard.  

I even haven't gone back and watched Star Trek Beyond-- it was so very good, compared to Into Darkness and even the first movie that I don't want to find out I was wearing rosy-colored goggles and missed some real problems; which made me realize that not long ago I was recommending two books ("A Country Year," Sue Hubbell, and "A Month in the Country," J.L. Carr) to someone going through her own divorce/midlife crisis-- but I also haven't reread those books since the first time I read them and they saved my life. 

I probably should talk about this with my therapist, hmm?  Being afraid to make things up on my own, or re-embrace something important and meaningful because I am afraid I will just mess it up again?  Urgh, fandom, this is why you're a problem.  You make me think too much.


Date: 2017-07-15 11:21 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] minoanmiss
Having dealt with the same thing on the other side, I'm really sorry and disappointed that Steve Rogers stans have attacked you. I very nearly deleted a story after an onslaught of Tony Stark's stans (he even saved the day in that story and they still flamed me because he wasn't a Saint), I so know what you mean. Ugh, fandom in general and the MCU's ridiculous Civil War in particular.

I know what you mean about some works being so niftily self consistent that it's prohibitively difficult to find those chinks and gaps to root a fic in. As much as I love fan works it's really lovely when a pice of canon is just about sufficient.

Date: 2017-07-16 01:07 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] minoanmiss
That is an excellent idea indeed.

And also with you. *beams and hugs you*

(Would say more, under a child)

Date: 2017-07-16 03:40 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] slvrbld47

I don't know what to say. I love your writing, and I love Steve/Tony, or Steve, and Tony, or Tony/Bucky, or Tony, and Bucky, but you shouldn't have to put up with any sh*t from anyone. I don't really have a Tumblr, though. I mostly follow writers on A03, it is easier to throw out the Trolls I think. But I don't know how well it supports the pics. Shrugs, the reason I was a follower of Livejournal in the beginning because the fic, and talk about the fic remained civil or someone was very distinctly uninvited to speak. :D

P.S. Your Trek fic was spectacular too, just anything in a fandom I was remotely interested in, I read. and was pulled in every time.

P.P.S. Though I must admit the one self proclaimed Gen MCU of yours that I read really seemed like it was a Bucky/Tony fic to me, giggles, and I never had the courage to tell you. I hope you don't mind. Please don't listen to the Trolls or wankers, or whatever we're calling them now. I just am so aggravated on your behalf. The gift of writing is so personal, and talented writers are such a treasure, and so few people treat the gift with the respect, and care it deserves. Take Care. :D


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